*"she's a painting outta focus with no good sense of intention she's authentic she's a model of disaster with a heart of revolution she's so innocent, but guilty's her plea everybody wants to save her from herself, they really want to save themselves
she's got the grace of a tourist, with the charm of demolition she's a poem without a meter or rhyme a random design of a flower like a rose no one really knows she's a master piece deserving restoration or condemnation time will tell us if she's a lifer or a decomposuer she is rose no one really knows"*
* pressplay [decom-poseur - nofx] * (i hate mondays) *
* what day is today again? ... just watched 12 episodes of Paradise Kiss non-stop. If everything weren't a mess i'd be sewing right now. Actually, i should be cleaning up! ... i don't care if PBJ'd aren't proper food. Chunky Peanut butter is good enough for me. ... i'm impatient with words today. They have been raping my brain all morning and i am being forced to vomit some now to have some peace. But its one of those days i would rather not speak to people. That's just how i am. Sugoi?!!! ... dakara, dakara... where was i? Oh yes, things. Life, and all that jazz, right?
" When I woke up tonight I said I'm gonna make somebody love me I’m Gonna make somebody love me And now I know, now I know, now I know I know that it's you You’re Lucky, lucky, you're so lucky
Well do ya, do ya, do ya wanna Well do ya, do ya, do ya wanna Wanna go of what I never let you before
Lucky, lucky, you're so lucky Lucky, lucky, you're so lucky Lucky, lucky, you're so lucky Lucky, lucky, you're so lucky Lucky, lucky, you're so lucky Lucky, lucky, you're so lucky
Yeahhh!!" (Franz Ferdinand - Do you want to) ... i'll get to it later. I'm just too much in love with my hair today to care. ... ok. Whatever. Suttopu. * Tell those voices to shut up! ... August was amazing. Now i must try and keep a positive outlook for September. Ganbare!!! ... that is... after i get all this wheat out of the house. Argh! * happy week time! Can't you already smell the season changing? isn't anyone else looking forward to the equinox? * and tonight i will make leeks! * listening to: guttermouth - foot long *
* (there just isn't anything to look forward to now, and it doesn't feel very good) ... *
* * tunics, togas, sandals, pelpos, chains... * today is a day for lust * "Take off your disguise I know that underneath It's me" * millions of things still to be finished. Procrastination. * she's a bitch. * remix time? * i edit life! * pressplay megalomania - muse *
* i am dangerously close to something. And i think it is mania. ... i just realized that one of the reasons i may be so gloomy today is that it is the birthday of one of my best friends from my teen years. And i haven't heard from her in ages. All i know is that she has been a mommy for a while. ... i must rehearse. i guess i'm a bit nervous. And i have a sprained ankle which doesn't make it any easier. ... ... Guess who is bitchin' tonight? Blah! Maybe i'm just tired in anticipation. After all, i have 4 days to make 2 full costumes and create a new number. * Saturday is near. * think happy thoughts...
* i am behind schedule. And tuesday flew by. Damn, i'm tired of being tired. ... My sex life has been neglected to sundays only. Seems its the only day my energy hasn't been all used up on something else. And that sucks. ... i did my nails instead of working out. And i am glad i did. They were a disaster. * Rehearse... * Gambate ne?!!! (all i really wanted was to stay in bed eating marshmallows and gummy bears and watching Paradise Kiss) *
* "Keep young and beautiful It's your duty to be beautiful Keep young and beautiful If you want to be loved Don't fail to do your stuff With a little powder and a puff Keep young and beautiful If you want to be loved" performed by Eddie Cantor
* sad and true. * but that is not the point. i'm just taking a breather. ... is it still monday. This will be some week... ... Yes sir, it will. * But its all ok, as long as i am young and beautiful, right? * c'est la vie, i guess. * fyi: TO DO LIST- Week of August 27th to September 1st!
Monday: - teach class - meet with Heitor to go downtown Sao Paulo and buy fabrics and material for costumes - teach class - get organized for the week Tuesday: - teach class - dentist - tidy up + laundry - put away shopping - work out or get nails done - rehearse - doctor - teach class - jazz class - performance night Wednesday: - teach class - do sewing class homework - grocery shopping - start on costume projects - sewing class - teach class Thursday: - teach class - work out - sew (try to finish costumes) - teach class - jazz and tap dancing class Friday: - start on choreography and mix track for saturday's performance - finish whatever is left of costumes - dread hair - Teacher's meeting - class Saturday: -teach class - belly dance class - teach class - rehearse - Luxuria: perform and get Master dressed up. * Mondays are always the longest days of the week. And this one is far from over. At least my 3-5:30 class was canceled so i got to buy everything on my list. Now that i can once again feel my feet, back to work. This is gonna be a long, long week.
(caution: weird face bellow!!!)
And i wouldn't have it any other way. It gives me a sense of purpose. *
edit to add: tonight will be something. Ok, i'm late again. *
